khoonie stories

i hate myself

2012-01-04T11:55:00.000-08:00

you are a very patient nice person.. ur a husband candidate cz u want me to be ur life...
im a wanderer... a passion fighter.. i hate to be tied down..i love doing what i like and stuffs..
maybe u are right.. wen hes back my feelings got mixed up again.. i didnt forget what i told u..i didnt forget what we've been through.. i didnt forget us being happy.. i didnt forget us being together again..and what i told u were true that moment.. they were all my true feelings..
but ever since i realise that my feelings got mixed since hes back.. its a reli bad sign.. it means im not 100 percent towards u.. and u know me.. i don like lying.. and i cant lie.. in front of u.. i have to lie about my feelings.. its like hurting u silently and obviously i do hurt myself being so.. i have been jumping on off relationship too long.. i didnt have the time to tink of what i truly need or want... i know u want me around but i don want to be around if i know my heart doesnt entirely want to be around..and at the end.. i hurt both guys that loves me...
i kept telling u i nid time to be clear of what i truly want.. i want one day wer i can be able to tell u.. i love u dear and commit to u once and for all and live happily ever after... but ur eagerness of wanting me to be with u end up pressuring me into making hasty decision which im reli bad at..its really disheartening to see u hurting urself cz of me.. i am the fault of ur pain... i hurt u once... n now im hurting u again.. the sight of u crying still lingers in my memory.. i am sorry i invoke tears... i am a selfish person who doesnt deserve ur love... u kept saying no but i know i reli don deserve...i kept feeling guilty that i fell in love with someone else wen we broke up..everytime i see ur family i blame myself even more...
u don judge me but i judge myself... i cant go through the fact that u are being sad urself just to please me.. i couldnt sleep well wen u didnt reply my msg last night.. i kept dreaming that u hurt urself... i am even afraid that you'll kill urself even though i know u wont do such silly things... u ask me why m i worried.. i just know i care..thats all..
that is why love shouldnt be one way..
it shud be two ways... i want to love u as much as u love me...
so i nid to be really clear..
and now DONO seems to be closer to NO and thats why i had to leave...
i want to be independant. i want to lead my life with myself at least for once...
time will show me my road... i cant be clinging on guys.. sorry i cant be in amsterdam wit u..
i m a mean person.. i caused all the pain to u.. im sorry....

it hurts but why

2011-07-28T11:37:00.000-07:00

how do i feel now?
*cries*
why do i feel so miserable?
after all this while that i started forgetting all these things that i used to do..
why he'd always say u changed.. u changed...
after reading my blog.. i understood..
the body that was once so close to me now becomes so distant..
someone so close to me..someone that i used to tell everything to became the one person that i start hiding things from...
circumstances changed me?
someone whom i wana see everyday.. used to complain not seeing him enough and now he had to beg me to see him..
i hate myself for that...
i hate myself for loving him lesser
someone whom i cared so dearly...
does it mean i don love him any more?
if im reli that cool den why am i crying? why am i pretending to smile in front of everyone? why am i even pretending to be tough in front of him?
even i don know who i am now...
my mixed feeling kills me..
i really wanted to go back , run to him.. but the fact knowing that i wont change and he wont either.. and its gonna hurt us both on and on.. i don want my him to feel sad wen im doing thing that makes me happy.. and i don wana be sad doing things that keeps him happy..
hes more than a bf to me.. he was a best fren.. a family to me...but certain things had to come to an end eventually ...
its my choice... despite how much i feel like taking it all back.. its too late now...once lost..forever lost.. how i wish i met him 10 years later and not now..
he'll always be a part of me..and i don tink anyone could replace him tat easily cz each and every thing reminds me of him..
i cried in the cinema earlier watching captain america wen i saw a couple kissing and ppl around me dating.. the way he used to hug me.. and manja me.. ill miss all that..
i dono wat to write anymore... and no words can explain how much i feel .. not even close..

results?

2010-08-24T01:37:00.000-07:00

so passing marks is 40
and here it is..my scores
crime : 34

public: 38
contract :46

common law: 48
how should i feel? - when all i can blame is myself
i reap what i sow.
always with my carefree attitude thinking that everything will be fine.. i'll get through it
always thought God is on my side .
I THOUGHT WRONG.. God is on my side but if i din give the effort needed.. He can't do, nothing..
always thinking i am smart.. yea i be able to get through... so full of myself. Intermediate is nothing at all like A-levels!
Yet my mentality and my attitude didnt change a bit..
When my parents grumble and my bro asked why am i not studying, i replied them confidently saying " i know what i am doing!"
yes i do know what i am doing i just didnt know what i was doing was WRONG .. because of my NEVER SERIOUS attitude thats what i get today.. DISAPPOINTMENT..

Regarding this issue, since 8am till now i had been putting on a cheerful face..holding back my tears telling myself think of the postive side, At least now i know where i stand.. Then shall i not play any more.however,.Failure is like a knife stucked in my heart.. i am a person with extreme high ego and only I know how big that ego is.. my bunch of frens were being most helpful by giving me encouragements (truly appreciate that) yet i cant avoid feeling USELESS, HELPLESS,LONELY and etc.

JASMINE KHOR SUAN KHOON..TARGET SET! AIM FOR THE BEST IN MAY JUNE 2011.. because NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE!! U R UR OWN LIMIT!!

SO WHAT?!!

So what if u fail two subs? from now on... i VOW to aim only for As and not for passes!! the feeling of being at the fence is torturous. The more i aim for a pass the less meaningful my life becomes. I cant go on with the I WILL BE FINE attitude.. thus, now LOOK UP HIGH AND GET HOLD OF MYSELF! ITS ALL IN THE MIND!!! (REMEMBER THE SAMURAI CODE!)

Why?

2010-07-18T10:43:00.000-07:00

why is it that the more you love someone you tend to hurt them?
why is it that the more you love someone you tend to hurt yourself?
why?
why God created the thing called LOVE?
is it to hurt us or to love us?
why do people keep falling in and out of love?
how did we overcome such pain?
is it the power given by God that helps us to endure such pain?
if YES
why did he even allow us to step into this maze?
why maze?
because some people who are lucky , they manage to find the way out n end up with a happy ending while some may give up halfway through and a handful dare not even try.
why?
perhaps everyone is Afraid. So afraid that that someone who comes, stir up their comfortable on-going life.
why?
because we do not have a clue what will happen ahead, yet there are those who are willing to give it a try and there we get , happiness with the expense of pain. Pain that is not simply physical, pain that is more than it could be seen ,more than what that could be grasped, so much so that no one would understand you except Yourself.
so why is it worth a try?
because no matter how many times u fail. You believe that God has someone,something for you.
And now i understand why did God created love.
it is through this way that we truly learn to be stronger because if we managed to Survive the deepest pain in our heart where you have no one but Yourself to guide you , to help you to get through all these, you can manage bigger things in life.And you learn to become independent.
If you're alone this world.Then we are all alone together.
Everyone is fighting for survival with all their means, God created humans to live through all tests and eventually go back to his arms.
However He could not see it through. Like a parent wanting the best for their children but they just had to be cruel to them at times e.g scolding us but at the same time makes sure we eat in time.
Like God he had to train us to be Tough in order to overcome all the challenges but he also created Love which allow us to feel a Simple bit of Happiness. Something that is there for us when we need support. Despite the fact he knows that we will get hurt through the process he still goes on to do it .as it is proven despite the fact we hate and curse the person we once loved. We still cherished the memories.
Despite the fact that we endure such pain and told ourselves we will never go through it again.
We still DO because we all know deep down inside we Missed those feeling of being LOVED.

Ps//
LOVE - is something that is feared as it could not be seen but felt DEEPEST by those who experienced it and those who had it want more of it and those who lost it still silently wished for it.

baby baby birthday!!!

2010-03-17T09:56:00.000-07:00

12th of march!!
my baby's birthday!
i brought him to midvalley GARdens! and everything went well!!
we went italiannes n had my FAVOURITE clam soup (now hes fond of it)
and we slowly did surgery on the chicken! wonder why tasted so delicious tat day!!
maybe cz we were both happy but seriously even the potatoes was fried nicely !
there we saw this gorgeous indian guy where i kept telling baby
"gosh hes so hawt!"and he goes "hahahah!!! I tel him ar!! hahaha i ask him for the bill k? den i say hey she thinks ur hot!"
n i go all the way shy! cz hes going to embarras me! try all my best ABused him eventhough hes KING of the day! to stop him from making me MALU! hahahahhaha
and as usual we talked we cuddled we kissed we took pics!
can practically see everything in facebook..

then we urgent to Alexis for their TIRAMISU served wit strawberry sauce (which my mom thought was chilli sauce)!
i knew he loved nuts!! cz hes ONE HELL OF A NUT!! but i love him
hahah
there we had crazy moments start laughing like hell n doing crazy faces n jokes killing the classy environment of Alexis!even the waitress "beh tahan" start laughin at both of us (jokers)
den while we start taking pics!
this gay couple in front of us were getting all warm wit one another..like taking pics like how we take

i mean "they looked SO NORMAL" never wud have thought they were gays! hahahahah
so sad for the women! haha cz both of them were quite good looking! hahah
the funiest thing was tat they were kind of SHY at first n soon got closer cz we were like hugging etc!!!!!hahaha

after alexis!

we went for movie!!! all expenses sponsored by a BEAUTIFUL YOUNG LADY - JASMINE KHOR!!!
"oh i felt like a BOSS u know, the man!! hahaha" felt damn good wei!! hahahahah
now i know why guys enjoy paying!! hahaha if im a guy i wud certainly feel proud so buy gal meals!! MANLYHOOD! (no wonder dear u got ego prob)

GUESs wat movie we watched!!

CONFUCIUS!!! -chow yun fatt!!
not bad of a movie though..made both of us engaged in a deep conversation about what happened and wat he should do..lucky we were like sitting at the corner..if not sure someone will say

"DO U MIND?" hahahahhaha

the noisy us ended the day by he carrying me out from cinema! hahahaha
cz i was lazy to walk so i Hopped on his back!! hahaha
my baby is STRONG MAN!! hahahaahaah
and the sweetest thing was on his birthday where i baked him a special STRAWBERRY CHOC FUDGE cake and sent it all the way to his hse wit su an's help!!
special thanks to SU ANN and JUSTINE! u guys are the sweetest thing on earth!!
despite the fact they bought RELIGHTING CANDLES that made baby blow like hell..
till he ran outta breath because it kept relighting!! good sign dear!! cz it means

ULL STAY FOREVER 20!! yOUNG MAN1! hahhaaha

Love u alot darling!! hope u liked wat i did!!!
love u so much my old man!!! muacks!!!!!!XOXO

love,
jasmine

progress in life

2010-01-14T07:15:00.000-08:00

had this happening bak kut teh steamboat celebration at pop's hse...
we actually made this bitter steamboat bak kut teh as no one had the intelligence to put in salt o ajinomoto...
until after dumping all the sausages..enlightenment came cz we can finally feel the bitterness.
smart sai cheong finally dumps in 2 big maggi cubes n it was MAGICAL! wit the help of bacon! the taste was fantastic!
n we had egg frying competition..well.
i turned out to be the BIGGEst lOSER losing to sai cheong,seng and may..
arughhhhhhh...
nevertheless.we had drinking game as usual..this time gold label..
being abused wit beer ...
and coke..
kena so many times..
till i basically clogged pop's sink cz i vomitted there..
(so sorry i couldn't control)

but these days wouldn't come bck anymore cz the group is practically splitted due to some nonsense and undue influence from certain beings.

nevertheless life has to go on aite?

26th may :

went to cousin bro's wedding..
sang him a song..
"never had a dream came true*(till the day tat i found u)
n yes indeed he found his beloved wife! kudos to him!
sis made a fool outta mom n other aunts n cousin sisters..by making them dance on the stage..
looking seriously silly but ENTERTAININg..everyone had fun though!!

new year?
went to temple chanted troughout the year!
supposed to go to solaris but..everyone's mood was down wen benny pissed kim off..
nevertheless we had another celebration on the next morning..

back to college and life continues...even more hectic..
n my only holiday is wed and hopefully thurs as well..

100 days left for exam!!! gambateh KHOONIE!!!

nowadays having very little chance to get online...cz 3g is being abducted by eldest bro everytime i want it...*haiy*

latest pics...check out my facebook!

http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#/profile.php?ref=name&id=550328506

welcome back jasmine khor!!!

2009-11-18T09:27:00.000-08:00

its been so long tat i've stopped updating my blog!
lifes been MONOTONOUS so far..everyday wake up go college eat study sleep !
the only interesting thing tat happened to me was my CAMERON trip! where u can practically check it out in my FAcebook!(guess i don hv to put the link cz the oli person reading my blog are those that already added me in fb! this blog aint so IN afterall cz its all my thoughts! plus its oli words n LACk of PICtures!)

anyways..went karaoke session today! 2-7pm managed to loose my voice n as usual sang the few MUSt SING songs which are - GEMILANG/WHEN YOU BELIEVE/BUKAN CINTA BIASA
besides.. i managed to sing byebye by mariah carey quite smoothly this time due to the lyrics highlight not being in sync wit the song..(i jus ignored the highlights if not i Tried)
then it went on and since i've been bugging both kim n pin for PHOBIA 2 for the past few weeks!
i managed to get them to accompany me to watch the show at 9.15pm in 1u gsc..
plus i managed to talk POp into watching wit us..
what i can conclude bout phobia2 is tat its JUS seriously A GOOD DAM TWISt at the ending..
totally something tat i wil for sure REMEMBER!

hmm...
not forgetting to update everyone about my LAtest schedule..
my wed n thurs has officially TURned into my weekends as i have classes on both sats n suns! until the next year end of the semester(wat a torture!)
-but wat can do? as i quote MR PAtrick " you all signed up for HELL when u signed up for LLB and now ur EXPERIENCING HELL"

well..as for now wat m i doing?
pLAYing fishville for my brother! LIfeless eh?!
dam tiring keep pressing pressing
ish....
maybe i'll try uploading more photos when i get myself a NEW Phone!!
SAYONara to my BI BLACK(k800i)
tat has followed me for 2 years!
CUrse the person who took it!
n blame myself for the carelessness..

NItes PPL!!!xoxo

harninder's farewell

2009-08-15T15:27:00.000-07:00

hmm...went to dear's fren -harninder 's farewell / bday party..
got to know his GANG of frens..Lol...
was kinda shy at first *not to mention me..HE WAS MORE SHY than me* gosh
hahaha..
but i soon got eased cz they were reli nice ppl..
got to know bunch of them..
lol..
n theres this dancing session..
HARNINDER's mom TOTALLY ROCKED!
she said " since im the hostess here today i dance u all must dance"
n there she goes...
DAM HOT...haha dancing along the song *i know u want me -pitbull*
n dear went in n danced wit aunty hahaha
ON top of that, i developed a new HOBBy which is to watch my dear dance! hahaha
first time seeing him dance...N YES he rock! hahaa
he was tryin dam hard to make me dance today haha BUT failed badly..
(i was freakin shy wei) hahaha
n scott's joke stuck me suddenly about the thing tat his fren said in i dono wer but it sounded like this

" eh dude, i c chics feeling hot here "

which brings about to = theres no hot chic here oli chics feeeling hot!
lol...

by the way, tania's choc cake taste GOOD! hahaha gotta give her an applause for that..
hehehe..
makes me wonder how long ive not been baking..
anyhow..i promised to bake dear a cheese cake! hahahhaa
i shall get my hands BACk on to BAKING! hahahaha

PA buy me a new oven!!!!
(theres actually history to my cake baking experience tho..
dad doesn wana buy me a new one cz he is afraid il burn the new one...but he jus wouldn accept the fact tat iM NOT LONGER HAVING carnival! cz form 2 for carnival itself..v baked 20 over cakes in a day..my oven spoiled n my fridge was actually sweating!!hahaha
n another excuse of his is tat i always bake for ppl n leave the burnt part to him..he don get any benefit! hahahah)

but dear..don worry! im baking cheese cake..so oven is not needed! hahahahah

anyways...NITE ppl!! its edi 640am! GOSh...n im having flue typing this post heheh!!!

xoxo

add on add on! hahah
harninder n moses's soldier boy dance was kinda cool! hahaha
ps// harninder..wILL miss U!!! altho i oly met u today! hahahaha
HAPPIE BDAY n have a safe JOURNEY to canada!!!
remember to sing NEGARAKu b4 u leave! hahahahah

I PASSEd!!

2009-08-14T04:44:00.000-07:00

hahah!! i finally passed my alevels! hahaha
nothing proud but iM freaking happie! hahahaha
wit zhi min's assignment only! i got C for law so im LIKE freaggin HAPPIE !Hahaha..
B for biz n D for econs..
cant hope for more..cz sendiri cari susah! haha din study so like tat lo! hahah
so...JASMINE Khor!!!

here i promise myself i WIL WORK HARD TO GET MY FIRST A for law!!

GO GO GO!!!

tension? o isit tired buy lazy to sleep?

2009-08-09T15:16:00.000-07:00

its 6.18am in the morning..just heard my dad woke up brushing his teeth...dare not open the door letting him know that i am still awake..
chatting wit daniel and pop...cracking my head to make pop understand wat im tryin to get throught his mind..and in few hours time my results gonna be out..
hmm..what color shall i wear?
pink mayb o blue?
something ONG!
lol...
was kinda like thinking of wat would i be feeling later...either smiling o crying..a pass is enuf to make me laugh n smile...cz it totally saves my parents ALOT of MONEY!
i aint rich...
i nid to pass my exams..gotta admit i m wrong for procastinating..wasting my precious time not entering classes in time..n now this is payback time...gotta face the reality..*slap on the face* wake up khoon!!
so watever it is!! lets cross our fingers! n PRAY For me! may i pass my exam...

hoping real hard for BUDDHA to hear my prayers!

OH GOD!! pls bless me may i pass my alevels exam! may i be an excellent lawyer!god pls do bless me...

the proposal ~ here comes the bribe

2009-08-02T13:00:00.000-07:00

went to klcc wit HOONg/yang(boy nana who claims lady gaga is his gf *puik*)/sai cheong/ n MAY MAY today..
initially planned to visit benny(boy nini - yang's lookalike) since benny is working for WINDOWS 7 under ben in pc fair..
but when v reached there...FREAGGIN crowded..like MARKET only..and the GUARd was like..JANGAN KELUAR DARI SINI!!!! blowing whistle etc..

khoon personal opinion " hello here market or wat? come on..its KL CONVENTION CENTRE! SIA sui man "

blogging continues...

so v walked to benny's booth n kacau him..there v saw him bullying AVAN(dono the spelling)
tat kena bully by benny..benny sitting down like boss acting busy! hahaha.. while AvAn standing attenting to customer! hahaha
but it was a busy day tho..

benny was supposed to follow us around for his break but then he could not leave..so v went on our own..the 3 guys found an amusing small little speaker from sony which n reli produce nice loud sounds! hahaha..only rm 29.90
sorry i did not take a picture of it.
they all bought it tho..

n v went to little taiwan to have tea time..
n decided to watch THE PROPOSAL!!

movie at 730pm.
our seat is 2nd row.b5 -b9
cinema 2
happily went in cinema n watched the show!!
IT WAS FANTASTIC!!! for me..it was funny n touching!!
i love it..seriously..others din cry tho.didnt know im so sensitive! hahaha
but indeed its a REALLY A MUST C movie!!
i rate 5 stars! hahaha

ps// lazy to write edi...RAN outta creative juice! hahhaa
nites ppl!! xoxo

how i feel?

2009-08-02T12:11:00.000-07:00

how do i feel?
i have not been meeting him lately..
almost 1 month..
i have always tried being understanding..not wanting to add stress to him..
facts are such that he is working from monday to friday..sometimes even during weekends.
Despite the fact that i want him to accompany me at night so that i could talk to him longer o even see him through webcam..i wil force him to sleep as he wil need to wake up at 7am the next day and work. No idea when he reaches home, but i wil get his msgs around 10pm when hes totally free.Starting i am always fine with it, and eventually i got used to it.

Days passes by, recently i tend to realise that im starting to see our relationship differently.
I see him as a friend, my BEST FRIEND.I stopped sweet talking to him,stop feeling excited when i see his messages.stop feeling sad when he does not text me etc. I got lost..i lost my feelings towards him as a boyfriend.

I finally had the guts to expressed all my feelings to him just now.-How i feel etc.
(i guess i hurt him deep) As i tell him how i feel, he feels that the same girl that loves him that makes him happy was no longer there. That was when he asked me , " i let u go ok?"
I felt kind off sad that moment though but i know him.He only do things that he thinks will make me happy. He would prioritise me over anything if I jus insist but i never do it cause i do not enjoy troubling him. Kim May(my bestie) chat with him while i was bathing, thats when i got to know that he even plan to quit his job just to give more time to me.(thank god she managed to nag until he stop the plan,he would get scolding from me if he tels me that.)ps// baby, i like u for being responsible towards your job.You're young, we are young, LOVE aint that important. Don so silly things just because of my frustration. -you promised your uncle to work for him.DO YOUR BEST!! *muacks*

Die la...write write half way, i chatting with two jokers one daniel tat suddenly wish me happy new year n give me sound effect dok dok chiang! n pop that got insulted by me cause he is less attractive than me! MADE ME LOST MY TRAIN OF THOUGHT! doom...n i actually thought of being a bit SENTIMENTAL in this post..URGHHH...

I shall conclude in such way then,baby got nagged by kim the horrible for almost an hour..
i apologized to him for saying mean things to him.Now we are happy back again.
I guess, YOU that is reading must be smiling by now.(if not smiling u BETTER SMILE! - give face abit..this is happy ending k? everyone smiles when theres a happy ending!! )

chEErs bloggies! xoxo

sunday morning laughs!

2009-08-01T12:36:00.000-07:00

hmm.... i finally got back home...opps sorry not my house though..
im in fact in my 2nd home which is kim may's house!
haha...
come to think of it in such a way..
lucky v aint lesbians...

IF NOT!!

alot of things could happen and our parents wouldn't know..
her mom would be praying for her to get a bf instead of restricting her! hahahahah

hmm....
as i said jus now...adding up CALORIES..u c...
i decided to be more of a MALAYSIAN...
ANTi *guai lou* food which is MCD(which i do love alot especially MCchicken)
i eventually went to STATION 1!
first time there though(kim may kononnya since 5pm say wana go place wit STRONG AIRCOND!-puik...i was sweating like hell!! hotter den mamak!)

nvm...i bagi muka..since first time ma...food should be not bad cz the menu is a FUSION between
kennny rogers menu + nandos menu + wong kok + kopitiam = station 1 menu!

atmosphere not bad so far...JUS DAM HOT!! songs not bad tho...

BUT THERES ONE THING THAT REALLY MADE US THINK HARD!!!!

its the * CHAO FARN* v ordered

in the menu its written

235. fried rice with anchovies and salted fish wit egg ( the index not so sure)
* chicken rm 7.80
* seafood rm .........

so i told the waitress...miss i want the CHICKEN one!!
she said ok...

n here comes the food!

got anchovies / egg/ salted fish/fried rice

CHICKEN - MISSING!!!

now got swine flue not bird flue k?
no reasons for them to HIDE THE CHICKENS!
v DIG through the whole plate n PROVEN!

NO CHICKEN!!! (either worker curi makan o CHEF o the BOSs *ku hon*(kedekut))

but v kind hearted din buat bising..i know i should voice out..
tv always show ma, *pengguna yg BIJAK!* (pergi mati la) - 12am complain so much...give the chef a break la...n don malukan the boss..who wants people to know when they are KEDEKUT?!! FORGIVE THE KEDEKUT BOSS OF STATION 1 k?

but at the end of the day...i still had a good time in station 1 though...happily aDDINg calories wit the VEGETARIAN fried RICe...n also ...
AH HA!
i forgotten...

very WORTH it to drink in station one!!
SWEET LIKE HELL!!
can keep adding water...u order one cup u get 2! they should have promotion! BUY ONE GET ONE FREE!!!!
not scam!! its true...
although i know, if u order water, it would be rm 1.20 one cup..(make ur fren call la den u take...ma free lo hehehe)

PS// before i end this..i would kindly like to exclude all my liabilities for what i have written...because i'm jus voicing out how i feel..boss of station 1..if u TAK SUKA...forgive little gal la k? hahah
seriously go order ur CHAO FARN n ul know how it feels wen U NID MEAT!

tq ppl..for reading!!
have a great nite!!! xoxoxo

khoonie adding WEIGHT again!

2009-08-01T08:02:00.000-07:00

freaggin fever is ADding up fatness in my body!! everyday eat sleep eat sleep!! KILLING ME TOTALLY!!!
at this moment i should come n continue by saying...
ALRIGHT I SHOULD WORK OUT!!

BUT....

SOrry ya!! hahahaha..
im goin MCD!! hahahaha
soon after this hahahahaha....
TO YUM CHA!! n add more CALORIES!!!

BURN ME!! hahahahahahahha

kim the horrible

2009-08-01T07:58:00.000-07:00

having a friend like HO KIM MAY is a disaster..!!
from 5pm til now..after her chanting session also she haven answer me where is she bringing me to!
And at this moment where i am typing this post..shes next to me breaking my bones!!!!
She would never be able to do so last time...cause she was SMALL n TINY!!

NOW???

SHEs FAT!!!!!!
kim is no longer skinny!!
now HEAVY!! n she can break your bones!! bEWARE!!! beWARE of KIM THE HORRIBLE!!!

2009-08-01T07:29:00.001-07:00

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MAN IN THE MIRROR by MJ

2009-08-01T07:17:00.000-07:00

"Man In The Mirror"

I'm Gonna Make A Change,
For Once In My Life
It's Gonna Feel Real Good,
Gonna Make A Difference
Gonna Make It Right . . .

As I, Turn Up The Collar On My
Favourite Winter Coat
This Wind Is Blowin' My Mind
I See The Kids In The Street,
With Not Enough To Eat
Who Am I, To Be Blind?
Pretending Not To See
Their Needs
A Summer's Disregard,
A Broken Bottle Top
And A One Man's Soul
They Follow Each Other On
The Wind Ya' Know
'Cause They Got Nowhere
To Go
That's Why I Want You To
Know

I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
And No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself, And
Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself, And
Then Make A Change)
(Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na,
Na Nah)

I've Been A Victim Of A Selfish
Kind Of Love
It's Time That I Realize
That There Are Some With No
Home, Not A Nickel To Loan
Could It Be Really Me,
Pretending That They're Not
Alone?

A Willow Deeply Scarred,
Somebody's Broken Heart
And A Washed-Out Dream
(Washed-Out Dream)
They Follow The Pattern Of
The Wind, Ya' See
Cause They Got No Place
To Be
That's Why I'm Starting With
Me
(Starting With Me!)

I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
(Ooh!)
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
(Ooh!)
And No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change)

I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
(Ooh!)
I'm Asking Him To Change His
Ways
(Change His Ways-Ooh!)
And No Message Could've
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make That . . .
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make That . . .)
Change!

I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror,
(Man In The Mirror-Oh
Yeah!)
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
(Better Change!)
No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make The Change)
(You Gotta Get It Right, While
You Got The Time)
('Cause When You Close Your
Heart)
You Can't Close Your . . .Your
Mind!
(Then You Close Your . . .
Mind!)
That Man, That Man, That
Man, That Man
With That Man In The Mirror
(Man In The Mirror, Oh Yeah!)
That Man, That Man, That Man
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
(Better Change!)
You Know . . .That Man
No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change)
Hoo! Hoo! Hoo! Hoo! Hoo!
Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na,
Na Nah
(Oh Yeah!)
Gonna Feel Real Good Now!
Yeah Yeah! Yeah Yeah!
Yeah Yeah!
Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na,
Na Nah
(Ooooh . . .)
Oh No, No No . . .
I'm Gonna Make A Change
It's Gonna Feel Real Good!
Come On!
(Change . . .)
Just Lift Yourself
You Know
You've Got To Stop It.
Yourself!
(Yeah!-Make That Change!)
I've Got To Make That Change,
Today!
Hoo!
(Man In The Mirror)
You Got To
You Got To Not Let Yourself . . .
Brother . . .
Hoo!
(Yeah!-Make That Change!)
You Know-I've Got To Get
That Man, That Man . . .
(Man In The Mirror)
You've Got To
You've Got To Move! Come
On! Come On!
You Got To . . .
Stand Up! Stand Up!
Stand Up!
(Yeah-Make That Change)
Stand Up And Lift
Yourself, Now!
(Man In The Mirror)
Hoo! Hoo! Hoo!
Aaow!
(Yeah-Make That Change)
Gonna Make That Change . . .
Come On!
(Man In The Mirror)
You Know It!
You Know It!
You Know It!
You Know . . .
(Change . . .)
Make That Change.

how to scare police away?

2009-07-31T07:57:00.000-07:00

BEST WAY for now is to act like u hv H1n1
this is seriously funny when it struck me just now..
remember the part in the post called h1n1 that i said i cried in the car?
before that we were on the way to carrefourre
we got blocked by police...
the policeman checked kim's license and asked where are you girls going?
i started coughing n my eyes were watery..(i reli did cough...NOT on purpose k?)|

kim said : bawa dia jumpa doktor

policeman (jumping to the back) : cepat cepat pergi...kesian dia...

HE WAS So SCARED he would kena! hahahahhahahahaha

h1n1 aka swine flue

2009-07-31T07:25:00.000-07:00

dear bloggies.. you must be thinking that finally i am gonna write something intelligent here..BUT YOU're HALF RIGHT! hahaa
i am just here to share my saddening experience of ALMOST being QUARANTINED! haha
few days ago...been waking up late ..not eating on time.. and i eventually got so used to this lifestyle...
guess what happened to me?

VOMITING /PERGING /

thats brings about to = FOOD POISONING and also slight GASTRIC

seen doc middle of the night wasted rm 80

1 day later..

COUGHING/SORE THROAT/ FLUE / FEVER /VOMITING

ALL IN! even better den poker!

everyone was like..OMG u got swine flue isit..

DAD says : u la go clubbing go party!! ( wen i oli went 3 times in my whole life)
so many people there...not scared of this virus is it?! its getting more n more serious
each day you know! NO DISCIPLINE! you think my money come from the sky ar?!!

normal for him to grumble...because...adding up the second medical bill..rm 50

he spent almost rm130 in 3 days time..hehe..

as i m writing here..i have been in the house..QUARANTINED by my DAD for almost 3 days...
hahaha....pathetic huh?

reminds me of the moment that i suddenly cried in kim may's car when accompanying her to carefourre..(not that she did anything......i just tend to cry when i get fever)

hahaha...laugh all u want...
but then these are some important facts for u to notice...

1. fever more than 38 degrees!! suspected h1n1 (luckily mine was jus 37 degrees)
2. flue more than 3 days please get yourself checked! high chance h1n1
3. read the newspaper for more info!

ALERT TO ALL CITIZENS OF MALAYSIA...
TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF!!!

new hair new look

2009-07-31T06:51:00.000-07:00

sorry ya my beloved readers..
haha...i know there are very few people who actually spend time reading my boring little blog..
but then...just to let you know..these are my latest updates..for those who read!
haha..

recently i have just cut my hair real short...sacrificing all my hard work for 2 years!
now its like bob look...
o can either call it new or u can say im back to how i used to look in form 5 but more matured i guess..this is because this bob is different from the procious one which was much shorter..
or maybe its different because my face has less pimples..

u be the judge hahha....
this is the new look>>

Don Write Me Off ,jus yet (hugh grant)

2009-07-11T07:33:00.000-07:00

Its never been easy for me
To find words to go along with a melody
But this time there's actually something on my mind
So please forgive these few brief awkward lines

Since I met you,my whole life has changed
It's not just my furniture you've rearranged
I was living in the past, but somehow you've brought me back
And I haven't felt like this since before Frankie said relax
And while I know, based on my track record,
I might not seem like the safest bet
All I'm asking you is don't write me off, just yet

For years I've been telling myself the same old story
That I'm happy to live off my so-called former glories
But you've given me a reason to take another chance
Now I need you, despite the fact that you've killed all my plants

And though I know,
I've already blown my chances
Than anyone should ever get
All I'm asking you is don't write me off, just yet
Don't write me off just yet

feeling like ONE hell of NUT

2009-06-18T07:42:00.000-07:00

i wonder whats wrong wit me..
it tend to strike me that every single time i look into other people's blogs o read any article..
watch any movies..
heard of any success.
il end up feeling like a NUT..
im so small! n theres so many things that I DO NOT KNOW..
but wondering how m i goin to Improve myself to become more sophisticated!
in order to leave some memorable impression to others..
giving the WOW effect!
mayb i shud read more!
n widen my knowledge! shall conquer my laziness!
JASMINE MAKE A CHANGE!!!

the tale of muthu and mei leng

2009-06-10T14:33:00.000-07:00

venue : kuala lumpur ; bungalows at ttdi plaza

main actor : shavin

main actress : jasmine

summary of movie :

muthu(shavin) a putumayam seller and mei leng(jasmine) rich girl.
muthu always go infront of mei leng's hse and honk honk calling out putumyam putumayam !
n mei leng loves to eat putumayam..thats how they met..
n fell in love..but different life status turns out to be a great BARRIER..
their love was put into great test

* * * * * *

at the end..MUTHU died of accident..while selling putumayam
MEI LENG was too sad..she cried evyday and she turned blind....

COMING SOON!! 25th december 2011

5.18am

2009-06-10T14:18:00.000-07:00

lo..madnesss..its almost 530am n even chickens would come n and CUCK-ooo koko--- hahaha
me /esther/jackson and su ann aka C B ..are crapping on BIKINI gals like wth! haha
c b asked jackson to jump into the pool wit G STRING! imagine tat! EWW..
lol....
n v were initially plannin bout our karaoke session after econs exam tomoro! hahaha
n shortly after tat MOVIE! hehehe,,
mADness..n since i wil be bringing baby along,su an wil tag along wit ken..(do mo hard-o gay des)
n JAckson would be dating esther..temporarily..since evyone got darling.. hahahaha..
n the conversation is still goin on.LOL...
MADNESS!!!

PICTURES of my HANDSOME HUBBY and I!! xoxoxo

2009-06-10T13:57:00.000-07:00

missing him

2009-06-10T13:46:00.000-07:00

its almost 5am in the mornin and im missing him like HELL!!
my goodness.its like..argh..i don get to see him often..
ppl use to say don find gf /bf in college ul go crazy seeing them everyday..
however this DOESN't seem to be happening to us..hahhaa..
our alevels is almost to the END..the oli class v have is LAN class.
(pathetic) n v don reli get to c each other evyday! hahaha
yet..mayb this is why i tend to cherish the time i spent wit him..n i love taking pictures of him n us together on every outing! haha..this way i hv more pictures of him to look at b4 i go to sleep..
n thus i get to dream about him! VIRTUAL date! hahaa
gosh..
hahhaa...nonetheless il be meeting him this FRI! yippeee!!!
its like WAlaaaa!!! hahaa...
i love every moment spent wit my beloved hunny as we wil jus never stop talking and his presence tends to make me smile..haha
i love sleeping on his chest..cz its comfy..altho may look skinny o bonnie but i actually feels protected in his arms..
if i was given a chance i would put him to sleep every night..give him a goodnight kiss on the forehead n tuck him to bed.. hahhaa
o maybe he might not end up sleeping n start talking to me o even TICKLE ME! evil fela..
hahhaa..
ah ha..
it suddenly strike me bout his deifinition of FOOTSIE : one leg rubbbing against another leg(POTONG STIM!)
i was like tryin to footsie him in the library n started asking him of the deifinition of footsie n this is wat i get..a very very VERY LOGICAL answer!
lol..jus love his lameness so so much! hahaha
baby if ur reading this..
jus wana tel u that I LOVE YOU !
n il LOVE U FOR As long as u allow me to..MUACKS ..xoxoxo

GLORY GLORY MAN UNITED

2009-05-22T11:44:00.000-07:00

Glory glory Man united,
Glory glory Man united,

Glory glory Man united,

As the reds go marching on on on!

Just like the busby babes in days gone by,

Well keep the red flags flying high,

Your gonna see us all from far and wide,

Your gonna hear the masses sing with pride.

United, Man united,

Were the boys in red and we're on our way to Wembley! Wembley,

Wembley,

We're the famous Man united and we're going to Wembley, Wembley, Wembley,

We're the famous Man united and we're going to Wembley

In Seventy-Seven it was Docherty Atkinson

will make it Eighty-Three

And everyone will no just who we are,

They'll be singing que sera sera

United, Man united,

Were the boys in red and we're on our way to Wembley! Wembley, Wembley,

We're the famous Man united

and we're going to Wembley, Wembley, Wembley,

We're the famous Man united

and we're going to Wembley

Glory glory Man united,

As the reds go marching on on on!

Glory glory Man united,

as the reds go marching on on on!

Glory glory Man united,

As the reds go marching on on on!

my mom!

2009-05-17T08:25:00.000-07:00

lol..my mom..
undisputably beautiful! hahaha..
i adore n admire her! haha..
jus created a facebook account for her..n i personally think that her profile picture is stunning! hahaha
At her age being complimented as having teenage body!
like WTH..COOL wei..! hahahhaa
love her lots! hahahah n this is her pic!hahaha

hello hello!

2009-05-16T07:43:00.000-07:00

haha..oh bloggie...been so long since i updated u! HAHHA
shy to admit the fact tat I M LAZY to update..unless i m dam moody o too free..
haha..n u no y NO PICTURES?
cz i hv no idea how to align it in position..(don laugh)
hmm...talking bout wat im into nowadays..
I M INTO POKER!
been playin til 7am every morning! tinkin im kinda mad..
i used to HATE POKER(cz i hv no idea how it works)
so its like a SLAP on the face wen i finally fell deeply in love wit POKER!
hahaha...
finally achieved my POKER 100k using tagged acc..
n indeed use prettier picture wil allow u to get CHIPS from ppl! hahahha
hahaha..
n talkin bout pretty pic..
LIK DAMN...
my sis calls my facebook n msn a SCAM lol...
bcz the PIC IS DIFF FROM THE REAL HUMAN! hahaha
those who no me..RATE IT!hahaha
hahaha..mayb a bit prettier in pic la..(cant blame me for photogenic ma rite? hahaha)
ps..
DON SAY I THICK FACE! hahahaha
pinch urself if u even hv the thought of it! hahahaha

funny things to laugh about

2009-03-12T06:29:00.000-07:00

lol...
attacked shavin's chest wit my powerful vampire BITE! haha..no bleeding tho! hahaha
realised neevian's fantastic BIG PALM makes my hand look like a kid's hand! GOSh!
haha and arm wrestled MAD EMILY n guessed wat! after her hard effort wer veins all come out face all red she FINALLY WON! hahaha..hahaha..
my fried rice got COMPLIMENT by jj..for having even colored rice! ish ish.. hahaha
cz su an cooked YIN YONG MIN the day b4 hahaa..her egg tasted great tho! hahaha

emo

2009-03-12T04:42:00.000-07:00

wonder y do i feel so sad today..
maybe cz of the fact that i got spammed by su ann bout her sadness..
and the fact that she keeps reminding me of my debt..feeling freaggin bad letting her settle our phone bill knowing the fact that v r both broke..
i cant stand the fact that my bro keep talking cock wenever i complain bout the fact that im broke..knowing that my parents owes me n do
doesn't wana give me my money..totally spoiled my whole dam plan ..my whole budgeting GONE..n wenever i ask..they wil say i lepak too much not studying so cant give me money
all i can say is DAM DAM DAM..wen i tel dem bout line.. they wil say i stupid for subscribing to postpaid..COME ON I BUDGETED! u guys SPOILED MA PLAN!! don u hv a bit of sympathy? argh!!
n to make things worse.. i don understand y the hell i hv an additional 100 plus to pay for my old line wen i din even use it.making my the total bill for an UNUSED LINE amounting to RM 211.30 n the fact that maxis owes me money n i cant deduct it from the debt!
i guess il jus hv to admit that i SUCK IN finance..
thank god i don take accounts..
so wat can i do?
FIND SOLUTIONS! no point winnig ang grinning over this aite?
so i guess il be paying off one by one! jus nid to give bit of muka kasihan to ma parents...
n manja ?u no wat? mayb I SHOULD JUS ROB A BANK!

broke broke broke

2009-03-08T10:30:00.000-07:00

talkin about money.. i shud stop lepaking wit kim n benny n su an! haha
but shopping /movie/makan is IN THE BLOOD!
its like i cant seem to sit still!
hahaha..
getting freakin broke until the extent i gotta talk about money to my bro..everything money!
til he starts complaining..
"god..wat happened to my lil sista..no more sista love edi now all money"
haha..even forced my dad into payin me ten bucks for washing his car n vacuming hahaha..
n fifteen from my bro for mopping the floor..
BIZ MIND!
hahaha..
ivan is still the kindest..
nid not do anything to get cash from him! hahaha
all hail to my beloved brother ivan! hahaha
n to spice things up.. o shud i say to make things sound more pathetic..su ann n i reached the extent to which v are gonna prepare lunch for one another to save up food expenses !(so that v got more money for SHOPPING!) hahahahhaa
v should seriously watch the confessions of a shopaholic! hahahaha
cant wait ! hahaha
by washing car today..it crosses my mind that i shud jus hang a board outside listed beauty car wash- rm 10! hahaha
its like EASY MONEY U NO! hahahahaa
?*BANGGG* wake up jasmine.. hahaa
in a nutshell..
freaking shud get a job to cover my expenses!

way back into love~

2009-03-08T09:25:00.001-07:00

sad times gone..GOOD TIMES are FINALLY HER
sings~~
"The thing about love
Is I never saw it coming
It kinda crept up and took me by surprise
And now there's a voice inside my heart
that's got me wondering
Is this true, I want to hear it one more time
Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Just a little louder
Say it again for me
Cuz I love the way
it feels when you are telling me that I'm
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It's like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you're in love
Say it again "

past few months been struggling bout whether onot to end the relationship.
and throughout my hard times..
theres this someone who woke me up.(like a slap on the face)

these words are still ringing clearly in ma ears-
" u deserve to be happy..love is not about whether onot u should be KIND o mean..its not about being sympathetic..all u have to do is to jus be who u are n make the right decision thats best for u"
(not exactly the same words but meaning sama la..) haha

he was the one that woke me up.. and he was the one that was there during my weakest moment..lending an ear (cz honestly he was jus plain KEPO ) haha.n eventually msgin him became a routine..

throughout this whole time..i learnt something thats close to my heart.

" u can never change a person..not in a million years..never force urself to be someone u r not jus for the sake of someone who u tink u love..wen hes not the one hes jus not the one.. "

to think about it...i finally smile.. n i feel a sense of relief FINALLY..

never would i thought i would get hooked up this fast!like dam..
hahaha
to everyone thats keeping up wit this blog..high chance ul be thinking tat i should be emoing..(break up ma..sure *kang ko* (hokkien -susah) one..)

to be honest..
i used to date guys which i knew through the net..
DUA DUA pun NET..(like DAMN...)
n the best part was DUA DUA pun my fren-WEI's fren..
n DUA DUA PUN SALAH! lol..

but this time this shud be BETUL i guess.. haaha
n yet i find it kinda hard to accept..
despite the shocked faces i see on my frens' faces..
even both of us sometimes wonder..sure ar v r together.?haha

how unexpected this can be..
i find myself happier than ever..
simply jus the thought of him carves a smile on my face(macam malu malu la) hahahaha
its like..i even smile wen i sleep tinking bout him!* gosh..honey.. ur VIRUS is TOO DEADLY!*
n i love the sweet things that he does -
getting me brambleberry in the morn-lying to me that starbucks ran outta brableberry but he had it..lol..n pretzels for me tinking tat i would be hungry (wen i oli told him ONCE tat these three things which are :
1)brambleberry
2)caramel almond pretzel
3)tako
MAKES ME HAPPY!)
besides that, he would say he loves me when i least expects it..
laughs at every silly thing tat i say..
presses my nose like as if its a BUTTON..*damn*
makin me addicted to his hugs n kissess..
n calls me n oli hangs up the phone wen he is sure tat i fell asleep..
does that silly face wen he burns his tongue..
n it jus goes on..
everything is jus beautiful wen i hv him around..lol..

yet..
i know the fact that i wont last long wit him..
haha..(kinda sad uh?) haha..
cz he would be goin to uk next year for sure..
n i could mayb last as long wit him until the end of this year? provided there is no MASSIVE Bickerings and stuffs..
(don care lar...)

see:
JAS KHOR's MOTTO

" bother not bout the ending..cherish only the memories v build throughout the process and that is more than enough"

ppl,
say AEYE if u AGREE! n for those who doesn't agree ...give me a REASON! haha..

ps/
wil try uploading some photos soon to kill of the boredom
in ma BLOg hahaha..
take care peops..
muacks~

its finally over..

2009-02-07T09:26:00.000-08:00

right o wrong?
almost 8 months relationship..
haha..
i finally ended it officially tonight! 8th feb 2009 to be accurate..
everything about us was alright..v had the same attitude.. character..
from the outside v complement one another..
aka perfect couple as v had this husband and wife look in cantonese its fu chai xiong.
but every couple have their own probs., n our prob is our ego.
n main thing is COMMUNICATIOn..
v cant seem to communicate..
8 months.. for the whole 8 months.. v have arguments and arguements..
the same prob never solved..
break up was never successful cz v promised one another to CHANGE(like as if v did)
n the result was v did not!
thats y this happened today..
i never had such long n serious relationship wit any guy..
to be exact..he could be considered a real FIrst Love kinda thing..
but how far can love bring us to?
everytime wen its about money.. v argue..
he saying im selfish
me saying he is selfish
pointing fingers at one another.
n the best part was that i was a materialistic character to him..
i'm the youngest.. i m pampered.. i get wat i want..
n who doesn't say they want everything..
ur a guy i' m a girl.. v cant compare ourselves to one another..
to make things worse..
v tend to say things that hurt one another everyday. almost everyday.. and all v do is hide .. run away from our prob!
i admit im stil crazily in love wit him..but i jus cant the guy that understands me in him..
all i wan is jus a little more space..a little more happiness.. a little less jealousy,,
a little less control..
heartbreaks as i write this but i know deep down in my heart this is right..
i wil be sad for god knows how long lol..
but i wil heal!
breaking up is a way to solve our prob i guess..
*blank*

kim sis's wedding! 25/10/08 ntg but pictures!:)

2008-10-26T11:08:00.000-07:00

me n sis!

clockwise..me penny cherie and sis

dad and mom

mom n 2nd aunt

sis and me again! chocolate obsessions

me!!! feeling beautiful! hahaha

ivan and cherie

sis and me! FLower craze.. dono wats wrong wit her!

may n me! surrounded by balloons

me n may again.. haha i uploaded twice!"P

honeydew and may may

beautiful gal!

chocolate obsession!

aunty sharry! beautiful!

bro ivan!(looking handsome even though u can see the greediness in his eyes)

bro and khoonie

family!

simply family

ah yee..drunk look

cherie and me

what to say? me lar! hahaha...getting red! hehehee...n more beautiful!:P

drinking "chinese tea"

beautiful bride KIM LIAN

togetherness... hahaha

sweet moment packing

beautiful bride turned monster!*gosh*

maksiat in toilet! (i was puking they kissing!) ewww :s

FINALLY..HAPPY ENDING!!!!

kim sis's wedding! haha

2008-10-26T10:35:00.000-07:00

pathetic?

2008-10-26T09:44:00.000-07:00

sucking day..
pist drunk last night contaminated the whole f**king thai thong
reached home around 2am..

fuck it.. i slept around 4am..
n GOd dam it..
whole house was like hell market.!*shyte*
imagine 8am! with such noise when i jus got my first step into dreamland.. and POOF..
GOne..its like implanting a BIg ALARM with SOUND suRROUND in my scull!
nvm..
try tolerating n force my sleep to sleep even with my sis walking in and out of the room ..
talking loudly on the pHone..
her freaking PHOne keep ringing like she was working for digi customer service..
its like WTF..get a life..one day ul die of cancer cz of the freaking radioactive surrounding ur freaking ears 24-7
to make things worst!
my student came right b4 10am!(knowing the fact that i texted his MOM! saying i wouldn't be fit to tutor the next morning!)

its like WHY TORTURE ME?!!!!
I NEED SLEEP!!!

NVM..*sigh*(take a DEeeEEP Breath)

open my freaking eyes..get off the bed n gurgled..(din even give a dam brushing my teeth and wash my face)

here goes.."boi, these are your new BOoks..do this this this that that "
n i went out and sat next to my dad facing the pathetic idotic BOX aka tv..

but..even HOw pathetic it sounded..i got my rm 10 back wit a lOst of rm 0.10
cz the books costs rm 10.10 to be EXACT..(who cares come on)

haha(the first laugh in the post)
"improvement"

n there goes..
1st hour..

teaching..

"cm to mm x10 ; m to cm x100 and ; m to mm x1000"

half and hour later..

still reapeating the same thing!
(like god dam it can't u jus get it through the small brain of urs??!!!)

to be a GOOD teacher obviously i DID NOT say that..
i jus kept repeating and showing examples even to the extent of HIGHLIGHTING IT on top of the page!

last 15 mins...

after showing him some examples..
i ended up talking to him bout his school teacher who was formerly my primary school teacher..was MY SIS's now MY NEPHEW.
COUNT THE YEARS MAN!!(facing ANNOYING KIDS!!)
*talk about patience ppl..*

hmm..
by having that 15 mins talk..i got to know a LIL bit more about my cute little nephew..

and here you go...y cute little andrew BOI! haha..how could you not be patient to him?

n my pathetic day went on......

after the tuition!
i managed to HOP into my mom's room HOPING her aircond would put me into sleep!
5 mins..

HOPING

20 mins..

STILL HOPING

1 hour

STILL HOPING

2 hours

......

3pM..

Zzzz.....

4PM..

"KHOON !! where is my jeans?" ivan bro said..

whispering to myself , "WTF is wrong with you?!! how WOULD I KNOW Where the FUCK is your jeans?!!! !@#$%^&*"

CHANGE OF ROOM...

BACk to my own ROOM.

there is my sis..

THE PEST..sleeping there!

*how i hope she is doing elken..i would have had the whole bed for myself as she would be too busy to even get some sleep!"

NVM...

i got on the bed n DOZE off..
none the less..

7pm!

WAKE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (mom screams)
time for DINNER!!

*ARGH...*

got up n tarted up myself n got my ass into sis's car n went to curve wit her for

MY BEST FRIEND's GIRL

pathetic as it sounds...

the fucking guy kept cursing in the whole movie its like wth..

throughout the whole movie..

"F*** F*** f***"
(almost every sentence)

anyway..it was..ALRIGHT..not too bad..

i HAD WORST..

try comPARing it with JOURNEY TO THE CENTRE OF THE EARTH

dear n i never cursed that much in our lives watching JTTCOTE!!

not nice nvm..summor nid to wear the ridiculous specs and what!!

RM 18 per pax!!! i rather go for pizza~!!

gosh...

back to my pathetic day!

n here i m..typing this post..
(you should be wondering y ain't i sleeping aite?)

even i don't know y! hahaha
walking pass by laundry in curve jus now reminds me of my days wit my gals drinking hanging out..
CRYING in laundry cz i got sucking results for SPM..
*i scared the hell outta waiter in laundry..! hahaa..he was freakin worried! like he did something wrong! cz benny n may n i was discussing over how much v owe each other n he thought v were arguing.. cz v looked serious n counted for quite a moment! come on..our maths sucks! hahahaha and after that serious moment i started laughin n crying! talking about the look on his face i wana laugh*

guess..i should stop here! its like freeakin long aite..

hahaha..

feels better now though...love this blog hahaha

mUACKS have a nice day PPL!

im back! hahaha

2008-10-24T06:25:00.000-07:00

its been like GOSH~~ so long!
i din blog! hahahaha
u no wat?
this is freaking hilarious!
i even forgotten my blog name! hahahahaha

i must be old edi! (cough cough)

hahaha..
hmm..seriously i dont know wat to talk about jus now! but suddenly lar

SUDDENLY..

the ILHAM came! hahaha

its like *piuuunggg*

i wana say...

"i feel pretty today!"

(wth!...muka tebal!)

(throw water bAlloon!)

gosh..
ilham doesn mean crap.. but while deciding to write this post..
i forgotten wat i wanted to talk about..
lol

currently or should i say now?
IM CRAZY over shontell - t shirt.
hahaha

~ with nothing but your t shirt on..~~

haha..(crazy me)

i went bintang walk today..

those maxis promoters were looking like *FREAKS*

god dam it..

u wana act like joker at least buy better paint!
ITS LIKE WTH!...

THE COLORS ARE FADING N melTING UNDER THE SUN
gosh~~

ahhaa..
n i don understand maxis..
jus because joker is FAmous doesn mean that it wil help in ur promotion..

come on..
joker is a symbol of UNHAPPINESS and also
SCARY..
come on..
its like subscribing to HELL line..

haha..im so gonna get SUED!

but hello..
i hv freedom of expressions! hahaha

besides...

im in love with starhill
hahaha..
i fell sooooo in love! wit starhill

the makan place in starhill
its like a TOTAL blast!
my heart stopped for a moment when i saw the design(expression over abit but reli dam cool)
hahaha...
its like..
how nice if i can celeb my bday there!

(but sadly my mean best frens! plan to give me a SURPRISE whereby their SURprise is NO SURPRISE!ish ish...)

kim celebrating bday wit her beloved honeydew..(nvm)

BENNY which i thought nicer one..(woRKING!)

ish ish..*devastated*

n they say NO PRESENT!

plus..

i m finally officially 18

they ask me GO CLUBBING MYSELF!

ONE PERSON club shit ar?!
hahaha

den i msged.. my dear..

my dear scold me!

say I GO hong KOng so don make noise say no one celeb wit me!

hah! n this remind me of wat the both evil best frens of mine said!
they said..__

" don worry v wont msg u n wish u happy bday cz long distance msg very expensive! 1 ringgit u no!"

ish ish...... SO mean!~~ (sobzz.)

but still...theres one nice soul who promised me a bday present!

the shoe of my life...

gold NIKe shoes! Rm 319! gosh..

my good son in law taran..

dono how true isit he say buying me that! *still paiseh lar!*

even if i don get it iM HAPPY my son in law! hahaha...

at least u hv the THOUGHT! hahaha

unlike that two EVIL ppl ! haha

haha..

but i guess...they hurting me to surprise me ar!! haha

may n pin..don worry!

i wil act surprise! hahaha

n my dear..

MAKE SURE U SURPRISE ME!
hahaa..

if not i chop the daylight outta u!

cannot say i in HONG KONG u cannot surprise me! cz i come bck by evening! hahahaha

hahaha...

writing this im thinking how many presents wil i be receiving this year..

if ur wondering what to buy for me?

i can GIve u suggestion!

1. chanel chance
2. dkny apple
3. dior cherie
4. starfish pendant (can be bought at tangs in pavillion)

haha..okies i gues i gotta stop here..
cz i said mY bday wishes edi! haha..

btw my bday is 4th december ! hahah

BYE BYE child of mother earth! hahaha muacks

blogging?

2008-09-20T04:40:00.000-07:00

haha..blogging..
talkin bout real feelings..
no wonder ppl say its best to be hypocritical..
shouldn hv spilled evything out n u wouldn even be like this...
didn realise this would hurt u this much..
i cant do anything to cure this scar tat i caused...
im jus sorry...
i no i wont be able to do anyting to mend ur broken heart..nothing wil help
i no u love me alot but i tend to disappoint u..
u wil care for me even though u are angry..
u wil stand by me n care for me n be patient wit me even wen i was being unreasonable..
u wil never neglect me n ignore me for long..even after i pissed u off..
but this time i no i m wrong..
i did something bad..i shudn hv wrote tat..im sorry..
i hope u forgive me...
tq for being here in my life! i love u..
:)

benny bday!

2008-09-19T08:16:00.000-07:00

haha...BEST fren BDAY!
my BRO! Benny aka KETIAK!
lol (he must be cursing me)
haha..
its his bday! n v went out happily! last minute plan!
u no y?

WE FORGOTTEN He's BDAY is ON THURSDAY 18th of september '08! hahaha

DIN even WISH HIM til he call us to tel wer to celeb! hahahaa

GUILTY~~~

even so..v BOUGHT HIM A BAG N surprised him! haha

here the story goes..

around 8 something may came n fetch me n went to benny's hse..
n v went to 1u ..(planned to go steamboat at first but thought about the PResent tat v BOUGht.. hehe..v deserve SOMETHING MORE expensive!) :P
so .. v end up in ITALIANNES!

v happily ordered angel hair n pizza! to jaga his wallet! hahaha

den..

may n i approached the gal to ask weter do they sing to our fren for bdays n YES SHE SAID THERE WIL BE 2 SONGS!

2 SONGS!

so v ate..talk crap..den i snatch PIZZA from them! hahaha *glutton me!*

i was the oli one eating wit hand while both of them were acting civilised! (come on..ITS BREAD!)
n kim THE EVIL ONE.. keep sprinkling chillies on my pizza! like OMG!

and here goes..happily eating happily munching n chewing! hahaha

n then..
finshed eating edi..

v waited

n waited

n waited

n waited

til v *beh tahan*

sent may to ask the waiter!
then oli he bring the cake!
n v thought they plannin surprise o something cz they PROMISED 2 SONGS! come on~~

u no wat they did?
they jus bring the cake..one CANdle stucked in the middle..NOT LIGHTED AT ALL!!!

til me n may gotta act..y ar? y got cake ar? they put wrong ar? hoping tat they wil come n light it n SING THE SONG!

its like...GOD NOES wats wrong wit them !

SERVICE SUCKS!!!!

they DID NOTHING!!

v waited

n waited

i got pist..i said to the waiter.

"can u at least light the candle?"

oli he LIGHTEd! its like WTF!!!

den v sang,,

"happy bday to u..
happy bday to u..
this is so DAM PATHETIC
happy bday to u!"

said sorry to benny n apologized for the fact that they SPOILED evything! again..
ITALLIANNES SUCK!(sue me for defamation! come on! )

n thus...

v LEFT THE restaurant FURIOSLY n went for movie..

BLACK WATER! hahaha

tat cheered us UP A Little...

A THRILLER movie turned COMEDY!

created bY us...as theres 3 of them adam gracie and lee..
adam (red) = benny (red)
gracie (blue and white) = may(blue n white)
me (yellow) = lee(yellow)

v were like crapping n potraing ourselves as them!hahaha...

n end up laughin n laughin..from the start til the end hahaha..

it was a NICE day though!

HAPPY BDAY BENNY!

talk bout love!

2008-09-17T08:20:00.001-07:00

how happy also gotta hv some sad time right?
hahaha..
i wonder!
sometimes this quote is jus so true
___ u cant feel love if u never gave all out for it___
but.. i have this tendency of..if i gave all out..
i might end up hurting myself to the MAX! hahaa..
but somehow o other im getting closer n closer to the fact of
DROWNING in the pool of Love! hahaha

i used to have someone who DOESN ARGUE at all.. hahaha
n i prayed for him to argue wit me..
til the day i broke up..NEVER ARGUED..

n now! i found someone special!
started almost 3 months! hahaha count! from 22nd march '08 til now!
n u no wat?
v argue almost evyday!
i wonder~~

so ppl.. never pray for something dat u wil regret..tink twice! god is reli listening! hahahaha

n u no wat happened today?

i was suppose to go out wit my lovely bf on sunday..
n it end up!
i told him parents don let me go out due to country's politics..afraid there might be fights o something! *haiy*

n he got pist.. i reli dono wat to do! *shouts*(someone pls help me!)

cant reli blame him..my fault as well gua?

both of us are hard headed n EGOistic! hahaha

love love love...(COMPLICATEd)

n while im typing this ..i feel sad..
not to the extent of crying yet lar..cz i hv been cryin since last week...
conflicts! hahaha *SHUUU* (don tel ppl o) hahaha
sometimes i jus couldn't stand this at all..

ppl say bf are the ones who understand u the most..
but i don feel tat u understand me at all...
find it so hard to tel u wat i tink cz v tend to fight..
*Sigh*
the saddest thing is wen ur beloved one ignores u. n u're doing it now..
*haha* wat can i say ?
sorry?
once o twice the meaning is there but too much..it has become meaningless..

i don even no if hes tinking bout me now.. darling are u?

*sigh*

forget forget! evything wil be ALright! i jus noe..

there are still lots of things to be happy about mar! rite?
hahaha..again im answering my own questions hahaha

im lost.. totally..

even i cry i laugh..

m i crazy>?

*tears flow*

n i say to myself...

"khoon..evything wil be alright..jus put on a smile! :)"

nites PPL! last post for the nite! hahaha
sweet dreams o!! cheers!!
PEACE!! goodnight! muacks!

talk about tuesday

2008-09-17T08:01:00.000-07:00

fantastic day! filled wit happiness got to sleep til 8am! can u imagine!
hahaha..long time never sleep til 8AM edi ar!
hahaha...cz evyday i wil be like waing up at 6 n goin to college at 7am! its like WTH!
il be camPING! in my classroom! hahaha even uncle Pakar Singh Noes! hahaaha

hes MY education MOtivator! uncle u ROCK! hahaha

okay back to my tuesday! cz our topic is talk bout tuesday mar!
haha..today I MAKAN! my favourite *GU CIBAI*
*you wil BE LIKE >> (OMg shes so vulgar eh!)

Don get me wrong...its a name for a type of food actually chinese type of food which i reli dono wat the real name is an d my aunt called it by the name GU CIBAI aka cow's vagina since i was mayb like em....*thinking* ....
7 years old? hahahahaha...i should reli get the picture one day n show it to u guys! hahaha..be patient ya?

den i go college lor...late for clas lor..missed daniel;s motivation session! hahahaha..
went for CHU cheong fun! as USUAL!
n me n angel turned hamsap n molested JOEY! hahaha ...u no y?
cz v ordered SI YAU yau chim!(kicap /oil/sesame_ n i asked for extra KICAP! n as we NO si yau is VERY HAM! salty! so i become HAMSAP! haha

*LAME!!* wateve~~~
hahaha

let me cut off the BOring part! hahaha
n go to something a lil more disgusting!

I ATE EXPIRED WATERMELON!!!
n i have nickname for watermelon as well!
(wo de mei ren) aka (my beautiful gal)
hahaha..,see!
but unfortunately this is a SOUR one!! freakin disgusting! i totally SPITTED out evy single bIt of it! wakakaka.,,*PUKE*

n GO home lor!

tats the sad part! KTM! useless vegetable ktm!
so freakin crowded ! *as usual*
this time sad one is
i GOT CRUSHED n pushed inside the train! thank GOD~!
wit the amount of fats surrounding n protecting my fragile delacate bones! i felt LIL pain! hahahaha...
but stil! sad!! i cant go out n my beloved cute BITCH sue ann couldn get in! tat grumpy uncle pulled my lil cute bitch outta the train sayin its crowded n let the other gal get in ! WTF**!!!

curse the daylight outta him!

n this i was crushed all the way to kepong and my beloved cute bitch was still stucked in kl! hahaa

went HOME AS USUAL watch tv lor! my hokken show!!
hahahaha YI NAN WANG! forgotten to tel u! im a HOKKEN FAN!!
hahahaha

and den u no wat i do after watching tv????

reli wana no ma?

guess....

hahahahaha,..,.

create BLOG LOR!
summor do wat one!
now still tuesday k?! hahahahahha

n now...
i END MY happy khoonie note lor! hahaha

have a nice day!!! sweeto dreamo!! muacks!

khoonie welcome Note!

2008-09-17T07:30:00.000-07:00

HELLO PPL! CHEERS!
firtst time KHoonie creating acc! hahaha
never like BLOgging as i LOSt my confidence in Diaries and Blog is like a DIARY jus tat its NOT TAT personal..ppl get to read it! hahaha

since my beloved CUTE bitch su ann didn't want to help me to create one ! i decided to CREATE ONE myself! hahaha

HOW INDEPENDENT uh! *sigh*

as i named this khoonie welcome NOTe!

of cz there wil be some kinda ceremony ma~~*grin*

so...here it goes!

WELCOME!!!!! welcome to KHOON KHOON! hahahahaha...

don laugh! nothing wrong welcoming myself k? no statutes written NO SELF WELCOMING! hahahaha

okaylarr... enuf lar.don wan spoil ,my image so fast yet! hahaha

i shall happily end this happy note of mine!HAVE FUN PPL!! muacks!!*moochy!*